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2011-02-27 04:54 am

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COMM: [livejournal.com profile] shifted_prompts - binary system
VERSE: [livejournal.com profile] realityshifted
WORD COUNT: 1471




A delicate balance had been struck between all of them: it wasn't something that ever needed saying or elaborating on when in the company of each other, but it was there. It bound them together with invisible chains, the kind that couldn't be cut through or even simply shrugged off. They were a cohesive unit, and they only achieved remote functionality as said unit. It was a fact Nathan knew about; when he met Pickles, he felt it. He felt it with the rest of the band- he even felt it with Charles. Just this nagging at the back of his head that these were the people he was meant to be with.

Synergy.

That was it, that was the word. Synergy. Perfect fucking synergy that made them a force to reckon with. Alone, none of them had much power. Together, they could (more or less) make countries bow to them, make armies defer to them, make gods kiss their hands in reverence. They had endless power at their fingertips and god it was great.

But the synergy broke for bits of time now. He knew that as well. On the plane, standing amidst the stars, the ties that bound them were severed as if they were nothing. He didn't have power there, not by a long shot. He was a regular jackoff, a normal human being there. Or as normal one could be in the middle of space. There was no influence to be had, no one to admire him, no one to respect him or fawn over him or proclaim how much they loved him.

He hadn't really experienced that since when he first started out, playing in failures of bands, living with whatever bandmates were willing to let him stay with them. Those were bitter memories mixed with some disgusting smear of idealism; the naivete of youth and the passion of someone brimming with creativity. That part of him was all but dead, but in return, he had a place, a purpose. One that switched off and on now.

Feeling that synergy die every time he left home was odd, to say the least.

Nathan twisted a pen in his hand. Things were shaping up different now, though, weren't they? There was Toki. There was Charles. Things were ending up how they were supposed to- him with his family, with the people who made everything just fucking work. He wasn't one to typically leap at mysteries or get intrigued by anything at all, but he couldn't resist thinking about shit when he wasn't otherwise preoccupied.

He had been told that the selection of people was random. There was no control over it, there was no way to pinpoint who could come and who couldn't. But within like, a month or two, it wasn't just him anymore. He had been fucking alone for ages and then suddenly, he wasn't. The synergy was back in a crippled form, but it was there; it's pulse thready but alive. That was Toki. It was almost like when he first met Pickles.

And then Charles, and the pulse went from thready to stable.

How the fuck could that be random? Nathan clicked the pen as he thought to himself. Maybe- maybe they were overriding it. Whatever it was. They were Dethklok, after all, and things eventually always went their way; even if it was crazy space technology that flagged people from multiple universes to go out into space. Nathan had wanted it to do as he wanted, and finally the randomization must've bowed to him. Oh yes, Mr. Explosion, the error of our computerized ways has been realized, we'll get right on getting your family up here.

Nathan mulled over it. That sounded like absolute shit, that couldn't be what it was, but hey, no randomizer randomed itself like it was doing now. That shit had to have been rigged. Someone in charge was rigging it, that was it, that was totally it. His first thoughts went to Roe- she knew that even though he had his moments of absolutely fucking hating his band mates, he wanted them up there so they could hang out.

But it wasn't her.

He was sure of that much. She wouldn't have lied to him, no way, not her. And even then, he had been peeking in the shop off and on; he hadn't seen her in ages. He hadn't seen much of the twins that hung around either, which was bizarre. He had mentioned it to Irving in passing: why the fuck would they leave the store unlocked if no one was there? Who the hell left their valuable shit just laying around where anyone (Nathan) could steal it if they felt so inclined?

He flung his pen at the wall. It didn't matter, did it? He didn't give a shit about them (he stomped his feelings for Roe with his boot then and there, he didn't feel like thinking about some dead girl he may or may not have wanted to take out on a date); what he gave a shit about was getting what he wanted, and it seemed the universe was lining things up just so. Nathan could accept that, fuck, he would accept that. It was how it ought to have been from the start. Him and the band and also Charles.

Synergy.

That was what mattered here. The balance had to be reestablished somehow, not left swinging all over the damn place without any care for where it was going. Nathan was prepared to mull things over for a bit longer when the thought dropped from his head entirely. All at once he felt like he had managed to turn off all his thoughts, and in that thoughtless stage, he wandered off to where he kept the blank book (now just a notebook for his half formed lyrics to be written).

He stalked down the hallways and slammed the door open to the room, then immediately flopped down in the chair at his desk. Nathan grabbed the book and flipped it open, rubbing one of his temples. He had to take one of his way way way earlier thoughts back: turning off thinking wasn't as fun as it may have seemed, because now he was caught in a minor struggle to pull enough cohesive sentences together to form paragraphs and complete concepts. Why the fuck did he have to stop thinky my god in heaven what was wrong with him.

"Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh, what am I in here for," he said, staring down at the book in his hand. "Okay. Book. What the fuck do I want this for. I don't feel like writing. I can't fucking read it. It's a fucking door stop and paperweight and absolutely fucking useless."

Nathan flipped to a blank page and stared wordlessly at it, as if somehow his willpower alone could make words appear. Of course, it couldn't, and the blank pages just stared lifelessly up at him, mocking him for thinking he could make words appear. With willpower. Everyone knew books didn't work that way; you had to be a moron to think they did.

But he grabbed a pencil regardless, and without much thought, he began to sketch on the page. It wasn't anything specific, just some old remembered sigils ascribed to demons and the like. Runic imagery, things one might expect to be on a movie set where a summoning ritual was being enacted. Just simple things, things to keep the page from being blank. Soon it all spiraled into itself, weaving together into some cohesive, combined image that he still couldn't quite make out.

He kept on, mostly just to keep himself busy. He wasn't an artist, but sometimes it was fun to do something other than write lyrics. Though he couldn't quite describe this as fun, it was more just... there. He felt no compulsion to do it, but no real reason to stop. If it could be described as mediocre, he would have described it as such. Unfortunately, the word didn't apply, and he was left thinking (ah, there we go, things are firing up again) on what the proper word was.

All he could think of though, was a different word. One single, solitary word.

Synergy.

Synergy between the band and Charles.

Synergy between the images on the page.

There was something going on, he could feel it, but he couldn't pinpoint it. This was part of it somehow, he thought as he dropped the pencil to the floor. Whatever he was doing was done; the picture was completed. Though he couldn't make heads or tails of it. The things that looked like summoning diagrams merged with demonic sigils merged with runic inscriptions in one gigantic - but combined - mess.

Nathan stared blankly at what he had drawn in the book.

Somehow... he got a feeling he had only managed to waste precious time. And he wasn't quite sure what that meant.
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2011-02-26 06:40 pm

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COMM: [livejournal.com profile] shifted_prompts - mutual destruction
VERSE: [livejournal.com profile] realityshifted
WORD COUNT: 1278
NOTE: AHAHA using Charles again without asking.




Alcohol was always his drug of choice. He started the habit when he moved in with Pickles as a kid, where it was just around constantly. There were other drugs, sure, and he did them from time to time, but it was never his thing. Alcohol was all he was interested in doing constantly.

Nathan had put some thought into Pickles' advice, and the conclusion he came to was that he didn't want to talk to anybody about his problems, but... he wanted something done about it. There was only one solution to this problem. Pickles. Pickles could score him exactly what he needed, in massive quantities, whenever he wanted it. God, it was great having Pickles as a best friend, he always came through even if he didn't know he was coming through because he hadn't even been asked about it yet.

But that was quickly taken care of. Sedatives. A fuckload of sedatives so he could just completely shut the fuck down. It made sense to him: as long as he was out of his mind on them, he couldn't manage to realize he's asleep, since everything was down, or whatever the exact mechanics were. He didn't know the details, he just knew it put you out or just toned you down. Good enough for him.

Pickles tossed him a bag of pills. "Dere ya go, Nate. Got enough dere ta throw a party fer like a hundred people." He smirked as he talked, obviously approving of the quantity, or just the fact that there were some kind of abuseable drugs within ten feet of him.

"Thanks, Pickles." He caught the bag and poked at the pills inside. "I, uh, appreciate it."

"Yeah. Must be a special occassion, huh? You don't usually go fer dat. Or like, you do but only once inna while. An' I'm pretty sure you already had yer once inna while thing, ya know?"

"No, it's- it's for my sleeping problems, alright, I didn't feel like going to see any body about it. I just figured... you could get what I wanted."

Pickles shrugged. "Well, yeah. Though dude, really, yer still havin problems? It's been like a week or two, shouldn't dat be over with?"

"I'm hoping this'll do something."

"Good luck with dat, Nate'n," Pickles said as he started to talk off, then stopped and turned around. "Hey, if you got any of dat left when yer done, just, uh, leave it in my room or somethin, I dunno. And hey. Try naht ta OD, dude."

He didn't think he would have any left by the time he got through with this. It would suck to not be a part of the typical routine of shared dreams with the rest of the band (it was totally fucking weird how he almost looked forward to that now), but things had to be done. There was a threshold to shit he could stand, and it had been met and exceeded.

Armed with drugs, he headed back to his room. Might as well get a head start, no need to waste any time on this. He flopped down on his bed and opened up the bag, getting a handful of pills and tossing them in his mouth. Without thinking, he swallowed most of them, cringing as he did so. Oh dear lord why did he do that, dry swallowing pills was terrible, why did he dry swallow like fifteen of them. What was going through his head-

Automatically he reached out to grab a 40 he had left unfinished earlier in the morning, and guzzled down the remainder of the alcohol. Thank god, that helped; now it only felt like he had swallowed a mouthful of gravel an hour or two ago instead of immediately. The booze was a lot nicer than pills; it tasted a whole lot better too. That was one reason alcohol was his drug of choice.

It wasn't long until he felt the effects kicking in, and damn he was glad he had already laid down in bed. Everything seemed like it was spinning, ramping up in speed with each passing second. He stared blankly up at the canopy of his bed, the dark fabric seeming like some sort of angry whirlpool or something equally retarded. Yeah, that's exactly what it looked like, he was certain. A retarded angry whirlpool hovering right above him, almost prepared to drown him except for the fact it was cloth, not water, so it couldn't drown him, just suffocate him.

He laid there for a few moments more, his thoughts becoming wildly more erratic as time passed. By the time he fell unconscious, he wasn't quite sure he was even thinking in full sentences anymore.

When he came to, he was in the hospital, hooked up to a bunch of machines.

Oh.

"I OD'd, didn't I?" He asked the ceiling, not particularly expecting anyone else to be in the room. When he got a reply, he was mildly startled.

"Mm, yes, you did."

He pushed himself up with his elbows to see Charles, who was standing in the doorway. "Yeah, uh, I thought I was before, you know, unconscious. Man, my room was fucking spinning. That was... pretty cool."

Charles stepped over. "I had your stomach pumped and your blood cleaned while you were unconscious."

"How long?"

"Two days."

"Fuck," he muttered. "But hey! It totally did what it was supposed to, so, you know, that's good."

"Oh? What was it 'supposed' to do, Nathan?"

"No dreams." He yanked the IV out of his arm while Charles made a piteous protest over it, and he swung his legs over the side of the hospital bed. "And. And. I totally slept. Sort of. Being unconscious counts as sleeping."

Charles sighed. "I'm assuming you're going to do this again?"

"Fuck yeah I am!"

"Do you think you could, ah, maybe not take so many at once, Nathan, if you're adamant on taking sedatives? Or not combine alcohol with them?"

Nathan crossed his arms. "Why."

"I can't guarantee that someone will go into your room next time you OD, Nathan, that's why."

"I was fine this time."

"Yes, but-"

"So it's totally cool if I do it again."

Charles pinched the bridge of his nose, clearly frustrated. "No, Nathan, it isn't. Just- don't take so many next time."

He grunted dismissively in return, then decided to tune the rest of what Charles was saying at him out, giving only one word replies in response at best. Eventually, Charles left, and Nathan slipped out of the bed. Where the fuck were his pants and his shirt. He wanted to get out of here; spending two days unconscious in a hospital was two days too many for him.

But there was still a plus side.

Unconsciousness was close enough to sleep for him, and he hadn't become aware of anything. He hadn't seen that Rita bitch, he hadn't been honed in on by something aiming to toss him out of his own dreams. All in all, the sedatives worked. He may have OD'd, but the results were the same. Nothing had happened. Nothing interrupted him.

For a minute he briefly pondered if that was what it was like for Pickles every time he OD'd, but the thought quickly passed. It wasn't all that important. What was important was figuring out how to do this next so he wouldn't OD again. He may have been dismissive of Charles' suggestion, but with consideration, he knew he was right.

He needed to figure out the right amount where he could 'sleep' peacefully without being interrupted, but not end up overdosing. That was going to take some experimenting. Or he could ask Pickles. But experimenting was way, way more fun. But he did make one mental note to be attached to all his future sedative experimentation.

Leave alcohol out of it.
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2011-02-25 04:37 am

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COMM: [livejournal.com profile] shifted_prompts - peppermint
VERSE: [livejournal.com profile] realityshifted
WORD COUNT: 805



That wasn't the last he saw of her, not by a long shot. It didn't matter who the dream belonged to. Rita seemed to show up regardless, lurking in the dark corners and abandoned places. She never showed when the rest of the band was around - save for Toki - but just when he seemed to get separated from the rest of them. That was happening more often. Normally they would have stayed close, they'd be near each other. But something... seemed to drag him away.

And then there she was.

Pointed heels, a short dress, the neck of her top cut low. Fuck, he had to have been getting horny at night to keep dreaming her up (he was certain she was from him, after all, she only showed up to him, or so he believed). It was the only way to explain it.

Rita slunk around him, a delicate hand walking across his shoulders. "You remind me a bit of Jacob. He's built like you. Shorter hair... blond... but there are similarities. So much that could be worked on, so much that could be improved. It's a real shame."

He recoiled. "Hey, lady, I don't give a fuck about whoever that is. And seriously, I am- I am getting tired of seeing you."

"Oh, shut up, Nathan." She chuckled. "You want me to leave? I can go. But you know, I'm the only thing keeping you from getting thrown out right now."

"What?"

"You really do remind me of him. You're about as smart as he is. Don't tell me you haven't noticed that you aren't tossed out of here until I leave." Rita stepped away, smoothing out her dress. "I could stop showing up, if you like. Though it may get unpleasant. I heard insomnia is a terrible thing."

Nathan snatched her wrist and pulled her close, his nostrils filling with the smell of her perfume. "What the fuck do you want, then? Or are you here to just fucking dick around?"

She hissed between her teeth and glared up at him. "You interest me, that's all. Aside from the similarities to Jake, there's something... alike. I can't quite pinpoint it, but I can sense it. I have a... knack for these sorts of things, Nathan."

"Ugh, fuck, I'm not going to bother," he said, releasing her. "I've had it up to fucking here with cryptic bullshit and mysterious notes and that kind of crap. Yeah, let's totally follow what the letter says, go find some fucking books. Here's your reward! Don't get any good sleep after that. That's totally what you wanted, right? Not sleeping?"

"He sent you a letter? But I thought he-" She cut herself short. "Nevermind. I wasn't involved in that, but I have to admit," she smiled, "it does make it much easier to get in here. It's like an open door."

He cocked his head to the side, waiting for her to elaborate.

"Shared dreams are such a pain to get into." Rita brushed her hair over her shoulder. "Shared with one is hard enough, but four? That's so messy. I wouldn't have touched it if there wasn't a welcoming mat. So to speak."

"Soooo... what. You're some bizarro dream lady or something?"

"Not quite," she replied. "But let's not get into that. It's all a lot of things I've put behind me. It isn't who I am anymore."

"Except for the fact you like going into dude's dreams, oh, okay."

"Don't give me that tone! I said I was interested. I meant it. But fine. I'll leave. Have fun, Nathan." A pause. "By the way. It's three in the morning."

With that, she disappeared completely. And the dream reared it's ugly head, turning it's venomous stare right on him. Like every other time, the sound of clockwork and gears roared to a murderous cacophony. The sound echoed in his skull, forcing him to snap awake. At least he was still in bed. Thank god for small miracles like that.

Nathan shoved himself into a sitting position with a heavy sigh. He wasn't sick either, so that was... good. But he had a sinking feeling that Rita's three am thing was right; it felt early, it felt too fucking early to be awake. Not even Charles would be up now - only those on the Graveyard shift would be up, and anyone in the band who for whatever reason hadn't gone to sleep at all. He was pretty sure they were all asleep though, he thought he had seen them.

He slipped his legs over the side of the bed and stood up. He had made a split second decision to take a shower, but immediately stopped in his tracks. His room smelled like perfume. Expensive, heavy perfume.

It smelled just like what Rita was wearing.

"Oh my fucking GOD, I'm going crazy, aren't I? This is bullshit." He groaned. "...Great. Yeah. Just what I need."
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2011-02-24 02:00 am

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COMM: [livejournal.com profile] shifted_prompts - last dance
VERSE: [livejournal.com profile] realityshifted
WORD COUNT: 1023
NOTES: Can anyone notice a pattern here yet?




Everything was too surreal.

That was what tipped him off. The sky was ashen at the lightest; everything seemed to be made of charred and rotting flesh. Some of it was melted, oozing like some sort of sick paste down vague shapes of buildings and onto the sickening musculature of the ground. He knew where he was, but only in a general sense. He was asleep, and he was in a dream of Skwisgaar's. His were always the worst.

"Oh, fuck me," Nathan muttered as he braced for an impact. He was aware of things, and it would be soon enough that something would turn a hateful eye his way and expel him from the disgusting landscape he was stuck in. To be honest, he was hoping for it; these dreams were bad enough when he wasn't aware he was asleep. He didn't fancy staying in being stuck in there.

The impact didn't come. There was no grinding halt, but there was certainly the sound of grinding in his ears, steadily increasing in volume. Nathan shook his head as if it could dispel the noise, but to no avail. Great. Now he was aware he was asleep, couldn't seem to wake himself up, and was stuck in one of his least favorite dream lands.

Wait. Was that...

"Roe?"

No fucking way. He couldn't have seen her, at least not in a dream that wasn't his. He had to have been imagining it... even more so since, you know, he was asleep and aware of it. That had to do something weird to dreams. He had no idea how, but he was pretty sure things worked like that. Maybe because he was in the reins a bit, he could control things here and there.

It was impulse that drove him to follow her. Melted flesh oozed around his boots like watery mud with every step; the cloying smell of rot almost overwhelmed him whenever he took a step. God, he hated this place, he hated being here, where the fuck was the band, why the hell was he following something he wasn't even sure actually existed. Which, actually, he was positive she didn't exist. For one, she was a fucking ghost. For two, he was asleep, so by default, none of this was real. Regardless of how vivid it was.

He turned a corner around some rotten meat structure and almost slammed into someone. A woman; too tall to be Roe, different hair, different build. Whatever, maybe she had seen something...

"Hey, uh, have you seen a-"

The woman turned around, revealing an angled but attractive face. Her smile had an almost predatory edge to it, and he could feel the hair on the back of his neck stand straight up. "You're Nathan Explosion, aren't you?"

"Uhhhh... yeah. How the fuck do you know that."

She brushed black hair over her shoulder. "This place is absolutely disgusting, don't you agree?"

"I asked you a question. ...And a half."

The woman's expression flattened into mild disapproval; her green eyes fixated on him. "I know. I decided not to answer them, Nathan. I think even you can get that through your thick skull, or you would eventually." She sighed. "Why do I always end up having to deal with the knuckle-headed ones..."

Nathan stepped forward, taking some measure of offense. "What the fuck? Who the hell are you to, uh, talk to me. Like that."

Without care for his physical space, she reached out and twisted a finger in his hair. "I'm Rita. But I don't think this is the time to talk, sweetheart, I'm afraid time's up."

Before he could say anything else, the grinding of gears raised to a deafening screech, piercing his brain like a lance. His hands went immediately to his temples as the dream came to another jerking halt like all the ones before. The last thing he saw before he woke was Rita, smiling with white teeth and her fierce eyes staring right on through him.

At least this time he hadn't fallen out of bed. It was a jerking end, but he was still in the comfort of gigantic bed. His head was ringing from the sounds and he tiredly rubbed his temple. "My god, this shit has got to stop." He let his arm fall limply at the side of his head. "Maybe I should listen to Pickles, get some fucking pills or something for this. If I don't get a good night of sleep soon... ugh."

He closed his eyes. He wouldn't be able to go back to sleep now; ever since this started happening, once he was awake, he was awake. It was annoying and cut out on the option to nap, but he was adjusting to it (although against his will). But he wasn't sure if it was just that keeping him from falling back asleep.

Nathan wasn't quite sure if he wanted to bump into Rita again. Something about her just made him feel odd, a bit ill at ease, which sounded stupid when he thought about it. She was just something in a dream, but-

She had basically called whatever it was down on him, didn't she? As soon as she said time was up, the grinding of gears hit the peak of volume and he was thrown out. Maybe she wasn't just a thing made up in a dream, maybe she was... fuck if he knew. "Yeah, no. I am way too fucking tired to think about this. Way, way too fucking tired."

He yanked his blanket over his head. "Fuck this."

He'd think about it later; maybe this time he wouldn't miss breakfast. Maybe this time he could talk to the rest of the band, not just Pickles, to see if they had noticed anything. Other than Nathan just getting thrown out like unwanted garbage - he knew that already. Maybe one of them had bumped into Rita. Maybe.

Man, why the fuck was he still thinking?

They really needed to invent something that turned off thoughts. Nathan added that to the list of things to get done today: stop by the science department and harass those guys down there. If anyone could make anything that could mute thinking, they could.

That would be pretty cool.
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2011-02-23 05:06 am

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COMM: [livejournal.com profile] shifted_prompts - morpheus
VERSE: [livejournal.com profile] realityshifted
WORD COUNT: 1011
NOTES: WELL... now we kind of know when this is all set I guess.




It wasn't often he was possessed by his own creativity. Sure, he was a man who could ooze it, but he could never say he had a 'muse' of sorts. That was bullshit, people didn't have those sorts of things; they just either got things done or didn't. A lot of his days were like that- he either was brimming with the need or desire to write or just completely dead in that department. It was turning out to be one of his more creative days.

Ever since leaving Charles' office, his thoughts had turned to sitting down somewhere and just banging out lyrics. It was early, but fuck if he could tell himself to not write. He wouldn't be interrupted for a few hours; no one else would be up for a while. At least there was that.

He had a room to himself where he went to write. Nobody except himself and Charles had the key - he made sure of that. He didn't want to be interrupted when he retreated to there, and that was about the only way to do it. Lock everybody else out; lock himself in.

On the desk was a book. Physics of the Impossible. He, Toki, and the Doctor had picked it up but it seemed to be completely useless. It was blank, cover to cover, with almost nothing of note to it. He had idly flipped through the pages, seeing if there was anything to read or look at. When there was nothing, well, he had decided the only thing to do was to write in it. Things from space were pretty fucking bizarre, so maybe that was how to get it to work. After all, the letter that they had gotten mentioned both books, both of them being important somehow...

It didn't matter. He pulled out the chair, then sat down in front of it. He pulled out his glasses and grabbed a pen. Nathan flipped open the book to a blank pages, passing by Toki's scribbles and some of his own half-assed attempts at writing lyrics. There were some gems in there, but he wasn't sure he'd be expanding on any of them now. It wasn't the right time for those ones.

As soon as he pressed his pen to paper, he wrote like a dervish.




And when he was done, light was blaring in through the window; the torches and candles had long since died out. He squinted over his glasses and out said window, trying to see if he could gage the time from it. All he could gather was, well, there was the fucking sun, and there were some clouds. Either way, it was deeper into the morning than he could probably guess. Nathan flipped the book closed and pushed himself away from the desk.

Fuck, he needed some breakfast.

So he walked back to where he had started this morning: the kitchen, where he was promptly greeted by Pickles. He was only half dressed, having managed to put on pants it seemed. And he had a sandwich. Nathan silently cursed Pickles and his entire existence because man, he was hungry, and it was simply uncool for Pickles to be eating in the kitchen right now.

"Hey, Nate'n. Where were you? You missed breakfast."

It was definitely later than he would have guessed. "I was, uh, writing."

"What, really? But we already got everythin written fer da record, don't we? Charles hasn't said anythin about it fer like, a week."

He yanked the fridge open. "Yeah. We already got all that fucking shit done. I just felt like writing, you know?" He pulled out something left over from dinner. "And I thought, hey, maybe if I write all this shit now, in like, a year when Charles is complaining about us not working, bam. Already got a whole bunch of songs... that I wrote like, ages ago. At that point."

Armed with some degree of food, he stepped over to the table to eat. Pickles nodded his head a little, seeming to agree or get what Nathan was talking about. "Oh, hey, was dat dream last night yers? We were all talkin about it. It was pretty weird, like, kinda not a normal one fer you, ya know?"

"Uh, yeah, that was me."

"Dude, what da hell was dat all about? Like all of a sudden it just stahped. It wasn't a wakin up sorta stahp, I know what those are like."

Nathan shrugged. "Okay, it's gonna sound weird? But like, I know when I'm asleep now."

"Well yeah, you kinda know dat from layin down..."

"Not like that. It's like, I'm totally sleeping hard and shit, and caught up in dreams, then someone takes a baseball bat to my head and I know it's a dream. And I'm still asleep... while knowing it's a dream."

Pickles put down his sandwich to vaguely scrutinize Nathan. "You doin drugs without me, Nate? You've been actin kinda weird since you, ya know, went trippin balls and thought you were in space'n shit. Like not all da time, but like, every once in a while."

He sighed rough and quick. "I'm not, okay? Fuck, I know it sounds like I'm high, but I'm not. Trust me on that, alright, Pickles."

"You gotta admit, it's kinda hard ta believe yer hangin out in space, Nate'n..."

"That's why I don't fucking talk about it. Except to you. Sometimes. Like now. I'm talking about it now, and you know, I've been having fucked up sleep like that since a fucking space scavenger hunt."

"So, what, it's been happenin fer a while?"

"Yeah."

"So dat's why you kinda just disappear for a while, huh? Yer wakin up early?"

He nodded. "Seriously, it's like, as soon as I know I'm asleep? I get fucking kicked out! It's fucking gay."

Pickles finished up his sandwich and stood up, scratching at his side. "I dunno what ta tell you, Nate, but, ya know, you might wanna talk ta somebody about that. Like, get some drugs fer dat sorta thing. Sleepin pills, I dunno."

He stared down at his plate. "Yeah." Maybe Pickles was right. If anything, that shit might just make sure he'd stay asleep.
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2011-02-22 02:29 am

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COMM: [livejournal.com profile] shifted_prompts - darkling
VERSE: [livejournal.com profile] realityshifted
WORD COUNT: 914
NOTES: HAHA I AM USING CHARLES WITHOUT XEL'S CONSENT. Because. Granted no one knows when these prompts are set so oooooo mystery.



The light of his bathroom made him look paler than normal. His dark hair was tangled, strewn around his shoulders and face in a chaotic mess. Man, he really had been sleeping rough. There was enough tossing and turning that he had somehow thrown himself out of bed just moments ago, regardless of the fact his bed was some ten feet wide. That, he concluded, was some fucking bad sleep.

Nathan brushed his hair out of his face with one hand; his other was keeping him balanced via the sink. He still felt a bit off- he had spent the past few minutes vomiting bile, and the minutes before, what was left of dinner. His mouth still tasted terrible, and he stuck his tongue out in some measure of disgust. At least that way he'd taste the air or something, not the inside of his mouth.

He fumbled at the faucet, awkwardly splashed some water in his mouth, and stared back at his reflection.

"I look like fucking shit," he said to himself as he pushed himself away, balance now fully intact (and put to the challenge - which challenge wasn't remotely the right word - via him taking a moment to scratch his ass). "Should take a shower... no. Maybe later."

He wasn't sure what time it was, but there was a nagging sense that it was way too early for him to be up. Maybe it wasn't too early for some people - Charles was the first name that came to mind, followed right after by Toki, but him? He made it a practice not to get out of bed until at least 8 am. Then he could get the double bonus of sleeping in and getting breakfast, which all worked out in the grand scheme of things.

No, no, it felt more like it was around six AM now. But he was up, and after that nightmare, he didn't exactly fancy getting his ass back in bed to catch a few more zs. He couldn't remember much about it now; just this fucking uncomfortable sense of whiplash and the sound of warping clocks. Something like that, he wasn't sure.

Once dressed, Nathan made his way to the kitchen. The halls of Mordhaus were dark at this hour, lit only with the orange glow of torches and candles. It was definitely still early; the few klokateers he passed were Graveyard shift members. It was fucking before 6 am. He hadn't woken this early for years, maybe not even since he was a kid and first having the dreams that would become a staple in his life. Jesus, he had to find a clock now. Too bad he didn't carry a watch.

The kitchen was abandoned. It didn't even have the orange glow of flame. It was just cold and dark and alone until he stumbled in there and yanked open the fridge. He sniffed at the milk before drinking that shit from the gallon, finally getting rid of that gross taste in his mouth. At least one problem was solved, now to deal about that fucking time problem. Where the hell was a clock around here, there was one somewhere, they did fucking have clocks after all, didn't they? By god he did not want to have to trek all the way up to Charles' office to see what time it was.

It was what he had to do anyway. It was who the fuck knew what time it was, he wasn't going to spend the extra energy to jump start his memory to figure out where the hell they hid all the clocks. (Or if they were even in a working state, sometimes it was just fun to take a hammer to things that you bought.) Like he had thought, Charles was up; he could see the glow of too many lamps from the frame of the door even when he was what was certainly fifty miles down the hallway.

Nathan stuck his head in. "Hey."

Charles peered up from his paperwork at him. "Nathan. You're, ah, up early. Any-"

"What time is it?"

"It's a bit after five AM," he replied, giving Nathan a bit of a curious look. Nathan could figure that one out, he guessed, even though Charles so courteously vocalized what his expression was already asking. "Is there any... particular reason you're awake?"

He stepped into Charles' office fully and grabbed a chair to flop down into. If he was up, he might as well kill time somehow, or at least for a few minutes. "No," he said automatically. "Yeah. I dunno, just had some fucking shitty sleep, I guess." He reached out to grab a pen to play with as he spoke.

"Mm. You want to, uh, talk about it?" Charles asked awkwardly, as he did 99% of the time when it came to anything of a personal nature.

Nathan grunted. "Nah, it's nothing, just- probably drank too much or something before bed, you know?"

He shot down any conversation from there; he hadn't come to talk, he came for the time, and just because he was hanging around didn't mean he felt like socializing. A few minutes passed before Charles accepted that Nathan apparently had no desire to leave him be - but also no apparent desire to be disruptive. It was something he could work around.

By the time Nathan left, an hour had passed in relative silence; not that there was much to talk about.

Besides, his thoughts were elsewhere.



And they were set to the sounds of an angry machine.
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2011-02-21 03:22 am

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COMM: [livejournal.com profile] shifted_prompts - nightmare
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WORD COUNT: 555


He's never quite been a stranger to nightmares. Fuck, for as long as he could remember, those were the staple of his sleep. It was just something he adjusted to as a kid and never thought about - as simple as that. They never made too much sense but who gave a shit, it was nightmares, dreams, a bunch of crap your mind came up with because it had nothing else to do while you were just laying in bed. Nothing of note.

Even when things shifted to shared dreams when Dethklok formed, Nathan took it in stride. Okay, it was pretty fucking weird, but hey, it wasn't doing any harm. Sure, it meant sometimes he was stuck in some bizarre, surreal bullshit from Skwisgaar or something that seemed like Lisa Frank on acid, but eh. No big deal.

But ever since he could get to space-

The sound of clockwork. Gears. That's new to him, that's something a bit weird, a little off. It's a fucking constant and even when he's not having a nightmare (even if it is as simple as buying hats - he never questioned dream logic) it's there. It's a thready pulse; something lurking in the back of his head, clawing its to the forefront. It's angry, it's powerful, it's fucking brutal, that much Nathan can figure out, and he sure as hell doesn't talk about it. It's nobody's business if he's hearing shit in dreams, besides, the rest of the band probably hears it too.

Fuck if that wasn't enough though, wasn't it?

He hasn't been sleeping as well lately. Ever since they got those books - one of them completely useless - he's been lucid dreaming. He even looked up the term on the internet just to make sure, but no way is it as nice or enlightening as all the jackoffs on the internet seem to think it is.

All at once, he realises he's asleep. Right now. Everything smacks him in the face in a split second. This is one of his dreams, the lighting is darker red, blue highlights. The rest of the band isn't here right now, but they're nearby. He knows that because he knows this is fake, he knows this isn't real.

"Ugh, fuck..."

The dream seizes without warning. The sound of gears amplifies, and then warps; it's the sound of gears being twist the wrong way against each other, the painful grind of metal, springs, wheels, everything at once. For a moment it feels like his heart stops beating as a sense of being watched or monitored strikes him.

It knows he's awake. Oh jesus christ, it knows he's awake, doesn't it? He doesn't even know what the fuck it is, but he's pretty sure it knows he's awake- no, dipshit, not awake, aware, that's the right word. It's aware that he knows this thing is a dream.

And of course, he does the most brilliant thing he can think of. He flips off his surroundings.

The gears stop.
The grinding stops.




The dream lurches violently and he's thrown off balance and-






He's awake. On the floor. Nathan lays there for a few seconds before pushing himself up so he's at least sitting. Christ, he feels sick, ugh. A simple bit of effort and he's to his feet, and he stumbles to his bathroom to vomit.

He's getting tired of waking up this way.

Really fucking tired.
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2011-02-06 06:18 pm

SCRIBBLES MADE ME DO IT ON RS SO JUST COPYPASTA HERE.

What are five ideas/concepts/etc you keep in mind while writing your character that you believe are essential to accurately depicting them?



First and foremost, Nathan is aware of his shortcomings. Especially his intelligence. Nathan unfortunately has the burden of self-awareness, in a sense. He knows, at every moment in his life, everything he isn't good at, everything he fails at, everything he's done wrong. He knows without doubt that he's stupid, and that's actually a sort of heavy burden. It's something he can't get away from and tries to ignore, but fails at, unlike the rest of the band who manages to go on in blissful ignorance over their own stupidity, and at times their own flaws. He would kill to be able to be unaware of how dumb he is.

Nathan is a perfectionist. Which in part ties to the bit above. Nathan is a perfectionist when it comes to things he does to the point of irrationality. He's destroyed thousands of songs because one thing was off. There's no retooling, no reworking, no compromising. Everything must be perfect on the first attempt or it's garbage, complete trash. He's amazingly creative, and he loves to harness that creativity, but things override him. He destroys his work over and over and over. It fucking pains him but he can't stop, no matter how he tries.

He's not as brutal as he seems. To be quite honest, Nathan's a nice guy. He's friendly, he's a bit nervous, he's social, he loves to hang out and pal around. But he's spent over ten years having to maintain an image of brutality, and sometimes even though he just wants to be a normal guy, that tough, brutal persona is just smeared over everything. It can be a bit off putting to start with, but when given the chance, the fact he's not that bad can really shine through.

Friends and family are the most important things to him. As materialistic and dismissive of any sort of relationship he may seem to be, it's really just a ruse. Nathan cares about the people in his life like nobody's business. He'll run into a burning building to save Toki. He'll leap into the fray (sort of) to try to save Charles. The band and the people he befriends are the things he truly loves other than his music, and he would do just about anything to save them or protect them. Nathan will risk life and limb for the people in his life without a second thought.

Despite everything, he's still a force of apocalypse. As human as he may seem, as normal as he may try to be, it's a fact he can't escape from (though he doesn't know it's even there). He's a herald of the metalocalypse; wherever he goes, a trail of destruction is left in his wake. He's been the death of millions, the ends of countries and states. Natural disasters, monsters, bizarre mass deaths, all of it happens whenever he's around. Nathan (along with the band) has been prophecized as the ender(s) of their world. Multiple cultures from around the world have prophecies depicting them. The earliest known one mentioned in the show is from 3000BC. It's something he may never be able to escape from - his fate is to end the world.
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2010-12-01 09:08 pm

why yes i have no hobbies

So, I was worried I might've had Nathan using 'fuck' too often. I just acquired bluray S3, which is uncensored, so I decided 'hey, I'll keep track as I go along'.

Results: my worries were completely unfounded. Under the cut are...

PIE CHARTS. YEAH. )
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2010-11-01 07:12 am

dethklok mythology time


“In any other event, bloodshed, whoredom, miscreantology could have been avoided… With others than but our beast-daughters Dethklok. Theirs and their bastard children’s legacy insures infinite tortured blackness… None shall birth no more… let the Metalocalypse take us.”
Ishnifus Meaddle – “Understanding the Dethklok Prophecy”

“We are Scathing, horrid, repugnant. We sink From Earth to Liquid to Air.
The Black Fire has taken our protector and left us to rebuild.
And rebuild we must. We are not souls of men but of powerful
animals who dream to race with fire and kill.”
Father Reaque Dannik
– High Holy Priest, writings from
'Church of the BlackKlok'

“And they took refuge in the skies and licked their wounds.
That was until the hour of blackness came,
the dead man would lead them to the Metalocalypse.”
– Gorlath Realaine “The Metalocalypse Summit of the Dead”

"As the prophecy foretold they licked their wounds and returned from the air to the earth.
And the ocean was at once the destroyer and the savior.
And the harvest did dry and wither, and the sun did cease to shine; the hour of forebodement was upon us.
And our home was pillaged to bring forth the dark soul.
And the death song of the man who stands behind shadows began.
And they returned to the darkest depths to sink even lower.
The covetous serpent did constrict those that luxuriated their final feast."




Whale; Mustakrakish in upper left corner; the band riding on horses to assault Selatcia


Nathan with mace, Skwisgaar with sword, Murderface with axe, Pickles with daggers, Toki with sword, Charles the Dead Man
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2010-10-25 05:33 am

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we are the dark and the light
we are the dark and the light
we have the power of time
we have the power of time

we are the serpents intertwined
we are the serpents intertwined
the galaxy will unite
the galaxy will unite


this is the beginning
this is the beginning
this is the beginning
this is the beginning
this is the beginning
this is the beginning
this is the beginning
it's all starting now
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2010-10-02 01:58 am

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KNOWN DETHKLOK SONGS

DETHWATER

Murmaider
Into The Water
Murmaider II: The Water God
Electric Eelchair
Scaled and Gutted and Undercooked
Scuba Tank Filled With Fart



UNKNOWN ALBUMS

Bloodpuke
Crush My Battle Opponent's Balls
Inner Child Tied and Beaten In My Trunk
Guts Punched, Balls Threw-up
Sewn Back Together (Wrong)
Dethrace [not actual title, just filler title]
Dragoness
Deth Do You Part
Organic Destruction
Reborn
I'm Downloading Your Soul
Dethfam
Awaken
Bloodrocuted
Go Forth And Die
Better Metal Snake
The Lost Vikings
Thunderhorse
Briefcase Full of Guts
Birthday Dethday
Hatredcopter
Castratikron
Face Fisted
Dethharmonic
Blood Ocean
Murdertrain a Comin'
Hatredy
Bloodlines
The Gears
Burn The Earth
Laser Cannon Deth Sentence
Black Fire Upon Us
Dethsupport
The Cyborg Slayers
I Tamper With The Evidence At The Murder Site of Odin
Comet Song
Symmetry
Volcano
I Ejaculate Fire
Crush The Industry
Andromeda
The Galaxy
Starved
Killstardo Abominate
Ghostqueen
Impeach God
Biological Warfare
Skyhunter
The Hammer
Rejoin

ON NO ALBUMS OR EVER TO BE PLAYED

Fansong
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2010-09-27 04:53 am
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[The call transfers to voicemail.]


Hi, this is Nathan Explosion of Dethklok. I can't come to the phone now, I'm probably in a concert... playing golf... you know, something where I wouldn't have a fucking phone with me. Leave a message and I'll call you back, jackoff.
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2010-08-08 05:02 pm

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★ First Impressions

☆ VISUAL: Very tall. Around 6'8" or so. Appears to be Native American. Pale. Intensely bright green eyes. Long black hair kept in perfect condition. T-shirts and jeans and shined black boots. Manicured nails, black polish. Physically intimidating, built like a wall.
☆ AURAL: Nathan's voice is a deep, gravelly sort of growl. He talks with a slight stutter and hesitance with his words. Emotions are very apparent in his voice even though he is Sir Growl of Roar. He has a General American accent.
☆ OLFACTORY: Nathan smells of expensive shampoo, high end cologne, the faint scent of rot associated with someone who is often around bodies and gore.
☆ DEMEANOUR: He tends to go around with a slight air of superiority, but it isn't one that lasts too long. Depending on the situation or the mood, he will either pull up a brutal and vicious persona which makes him seem like a callous sort of jerk, or he will throw it down revealing himself to be a pretty nice and friendly guy. He seems very easily distracted. Somehow charismatic/inspiring despite which one he slips into.


★ IC Permissions

☆ PHYSICAL AFFECTION: Nathan will act like he might not want it in most cases, but no, it's okay.
☆ PHYSICAL VIOLENCE: Yes.
☆ RELATIONSHIPS: Nathan has no problem forming romantic relationships with people. If it clicks, it clicks. He tends to be the more submissive one in a relationship and just really likes normal girls. Outside of 'dating', he is a great fan of casual, meaningless sex.
☆ PSYCHIC & PSIONIC INFORMATION: Nathan is not at all psychic, and has absolutely no psychic defenses. Anyone who pokes around in his head will see that for all his attempts at seeming like a really brutal guy, he is basically a big, fluffy, squishy guy who is emotional, affectionate, sweet, and sort of childlike. He has a fair share of self-loathing though and off-and-on anxiety.
☆ MAGICAL INFORMATION: Nathan has shown no signs of doing anything magical on purpose or whatever, but seeing as we don't know his true nature, it's a big fat idk. Though he likely does ping on any non-human radar, at least to some degree, as he's an agent/bringer of the Metalocalypse. As well, with the no signs of doing things on purpose, well, not on purpose... he causes chaos and destruction to follow wherever he goes.
☆ MEDICAL INFORMATION: Nathan is overweight, an alcoholic, has had surgery multiple times, and occasionally suffers from depression and has anxiety disorders. Aside from those facts, he is healthy beyond human capacity - he can drink bleach and only suffer nightmares, so on.
☆ OFFENSIVE SUBJECTS & TRIGGERS: Hamburger Time.


★ OOC Permissions

☆ BACKTAGGING: Yes.
☆ THREADHOPPING: Yes.
☆ FOURTHWALLING: I'm not much a fan of fourthwalling, but Nathan is famous and would shrug off anyone recognising him. Or he'd employ the fact of 'hey maybe we're just that awesome that your stupid universe knows about us but is too retarded to realise we're real people'.
☆ DO NOT WANT: I don't like All Drama All The Time, it gets a bit draining. Otherwise I think I'm cool with mostly everything?

☆ ANYTHING ELSE? Your mom.
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2010-07-20 06:28 am

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Player Name: Dero
Player LJ: [livejournal.com profile] derogative
Email and/or AIM: derogative@live.com (and) xx derogative xx
Timezone: EST
Other Characters: Ray Carling ([livejournal.com profile] gotitwrong)

Character: Nathan Explosion
Series/Fandom: Metalocalypse
Deviance: d1

Age: SOMEWHERE IN HIS 30s, I HAVE NO IDEA.
Gender: Male
Species: Human (possibly god/demi-god/demon? who knows.)

Canon Used: Metalocalypse

Appearance:


Nathan is six foot seven inches tall barefoot and around six foot nine in his boots. He's a very tall man with a strong looking but heavy build. His weight is somewhere around 270 pounds or more. When dressed, he simply just looks like a stocky guy, but get the shirt off, and oh yeah, guy has a beer gut.

He also is supposed to appear at least slightly Native American.

Otherwise, he has constantly brushed long black hair, bright green eyes, pale skin, and his nails are so well manicured that anyone who likes doing their nails would be jealous like no tomorrow. They are the cleanest, nicest nails you have ever seen. Even the black nail polish just somehow manages to be clean, like some sort of shiny black gem.

You cannot groom yourself as well as this man is groomed.

Psychology: To most of the world, Nathan Explosion is a very simple man. His huge build and deep, gravelly voice cultivate a persona that he can't help but portray in public; one of an unintelligent brute. He doesn't do much to dissuade it, which only compounds it.

Publically, he's a man of few words, of short, stilted sentences with a fair share of repetitions. One might even assume he has some sort of stutter based on his speech, which along with the things mentioned, is heavily peppered with 'uh' and 'um'. Any attempts at speeches fall short, and most of the time, he declines anything like public speaking.

The few times he does, he conveys nothing but contempt and anger to anyone outside of Dethklok. He often tells people to go die, calls them jackoffs, douchebags, or whatever insult can come to mind. But that's because they're fans. He hates fans with an unbridled, undying passion. He knows it's cynical, as he comments upon in Fansong, to hate the fans, because without them, he'd be no where... but he hates them anyway. He thinks of them all as scum and treats them that way.

Along with the contempt he shows is the anger; he doesn't hesitate to threaten to kill people or cause them some sort of harm if he's in a sour mood. He throws things, he growls, he more or less acts like an angry little boy. Yet people love that, they love that angry violence and contempt.

It frustrates Nathan a little, because he feels pressure to maintain that image - a bit of dialogue from Facebones reveals that a substantial chunk of the drinking he does is to entertain the fans. He knows that if he doesn't keep up appearances, if he doesn't entertain, then he loses everything. So he just lets all the frustration and annoyance he has for keeping up appearance take the front seat and drive. If he was ever faking his disdain, he finally got to the 'make it' part of the saying.

Despite his attempts at keeping fans happy, Nathan is completely and utterly disillusioned with music. He does it because it's all he knows, and every so often he enjoys it and remembers why he became a singer in the first place... but usually, he doesn't feel anything. It's automatic, it's something he does to get a paycheck. Music is in his blood and makes up the very fibre of his being, but the years of performing wore away the true love he had when he was a young man, just starting out.

He's attempted to fight his disillusionment with mediocre results; his attempts at getting in touch with his musical roots only put him in the same situation, just a little bit worse off. Fans still called him (and the band) a sell-out and insulted him, even though he was doing the opposite of what he (and the band, posing as tribute band Thunderhorse) was doing as Dethklok. He knows now that he can never get back that naivete he had, that pure joy of pleasing an audience. His disillusionment runs long and deep in him, and with the failed attempt at getting in touch with the fans, likely will never fade away.

Yet still, even with all the disillusionment, music and writing is where he truly shines. Put a pen and paper in his hands, and all at once Nathan's inability to express himself disappears. He is regarded as a lyrical visionary, with his songs conveying storylines that often contain themes of usurpation of gods, sinful pride, cataclysmic destruction, assertations of power, mistaken identities, dystopian futures, and bounty hunters.

While some might OOCly debate whether or not he's the lyrical visionary the show paints him to be, in his universe, yes he is. He carefully crafts his songs, carefully picks the words and the lines. It's in his writing that the depths of his vocabulary show, revealing that he knows a fair share of 'uncommon' words, and he applies them correctly whenever they're used. Writing and singing are the only ways he has to really express himself, so Nathan puts his heart and soul into everything he writes.

Unfortunately, this raises a bit of a problem for himself and the rest of the band. Nathan is a notorious perfectionist with insane standards. He applies them to himself and to everyone in the band - if one single thing is wrong, he won't re-record a song. He deletes the entire album and demands they start from scratch. He destroys his own writing, thinking of it as flawed by association. Hundreds of songs have been lost to his perfectionism, and countless albums lost forever because of some arbitrary flaw.

That perfectionism makes him the one true bane of the band. Nathan rules like a tyrant over their work - while Knubbler is the producer and Ofdensen their manager, it is Nathan who decides if an album goes forward. And usually it doesn't, which causes Nathan and Pickles to argue from time to time over the reasons as to why this or that album was put on the chop block. Nathan, of course, always wins.

But at least it guarantees that their work is always top notch, something Nathan takes solace in. No matter how many albums he trashes, at least one will be a gem, one will be perfect, and then he can stop writing and stop singing for a year or two. Nothing can be half-assed when it comes to the albums. Nathan won't let it be, even though he hates working.

Which he very much does. His disillusionment and perfectionism are often taxing, and if he can get away with not working, he does. He hates working on albums, as he spends so much time writing and going over tracks and samples, unable to really do much else. Some of his time has been freed with the addition to Knubbler to the team, but no, he still hates doing his job.

Though don't let all the negativity in the past few paragraphs convince you that Nathan is a bitter, sour person. In fact, he's far from it. While the above displays most of his public appearance, Nathan in private is a sensitive, thoughtful man. Most people don't know that fact, and it's something he plans to keep private. The only ones that get to really see a lot of that side, constantly, are the rest of Dethklok and Ofdensen, by matter of being around them so much.

To begin with, Nathan doesn't have the greatest self-esteem in the world. While he can come off as cocky and arrogant to outsiders, the reverse is actually true - he is well aware of all his laws and is very self-conscious about them. While he isn't as sensitive as, say, Murderface can be, he is often prone to emotional outbursts or just outcries over something he perceives as his fault or something he should have been able to do right.

He's painfully aware of the fact he isn't that smart and he doesn't know how to do a lot of things, along with the fact that he often screws things up. Even with Ofdensen trying to approach something as best as he can, or not even wording it to say that Dethklok did anything wrong, Nathan interprets it in the way he feels. That they messed up, and he makes it known by shouting his feelings as loud as he can. He's used to those outbursts being partially ignored as well, but he always feels a bit better to yell about how he's a screw up.

Similarly, he's self-conscious about his weight. He knows he's very out of shape, that he doesn't work out or do anything except eat and drink. Mentions about his weight often upset him. He may sound okay to begin with, but it usually quickly spirals down into some degree of self-loathing for being fat, or anger at being fat. In fact, he's incredibly concerned with his appearance, from his weight, to his skin, to his hair, so on. He tries very hard to look good, but the slightest comment (usually from tabloids, which often photoshop him) triggers his concerns. At one point, it culminated in him and the band trying to go on a diet and shame eating in closets because they hated themselves and felt fat.

Nathan, next to Toki, is one of the more emotional members of the band. His sudden outbursts over his failings are one example of it, his feelings of guilt over things he blames himself for is another, but otherwise, he is truly... well, he's a kindhearted, emotional guy who's inability to express himself is the only thing holding him back from seeming 'normal'. He cares deeply about the rest of the band, despite the fact one of the band rules is not to care about anyone else. It's likely even one he came up with himself, but he plays fast and loose with it, constantly toeing the line between disinterest and legitimate concern.

Whether it's feeling guilt and remorse over causing Murderface to get hospitalised, concern over Murderface messing with Skwisgaar's daddy issues, anger and disappointment over Skwisgaar wanting to leave the band, or concern for Toki and his binge drinking, it's obvious that he just... does care about them, no matter what, and it's sometimes very hard for him to keep himself from not letting that show. In fact, if he does, it's often one-on-one, or in situations where someone won't remember.

As well, it's very telling that Nathan called them his family. That is how he thinks of them, they're not just his bandmates, they're not just his friends, they are his family, people that are the closest thing he has to brothers. Nathan wouldn't hesitate to run into danger to save one of them, because that's simply what someone does for the people they care about. They risk their lives to save them. However much he may claim to hate them or say that they aren't friends in the least bit, it's all just a cover for his feelings for them. And so he doesn't get in trouble for breaking band rules.

While touching on family, Nathan functions more than just another 'brother' in the band. For lack of anyone else, he functions as a sort of father figure to the rest of them. He doesn't often call on his authority over the band, usually preferring - if he has to - to make a comment here and there about what he thinks on the matter. If thinks get out of hand, though, his daddy tendencies come to the front. He doesn't hesitate to give his unruly 'children' a smack for misbehaving, or otherwise punishing them for being douchebags now and again. He can be commanding when he needs to be, and it usually falls under that fatherly side of him, which he does really excel at. Then again, it's not that hard to be a good father figure to a group of emotionally dysfunctional misfits who either had no fathers or abusive fathers. Especially if you're the only one who has a good relationship with your father.

Which, surprisingly, Nathan does. While he really does hate his mother and probably wishes she would explode, he has often expressed that he hates to think of the idea of his father dying. He loves and idolises his dad, despite the fact he knows his dad resented him for a chunk of his life. That resentment is in the past and Nathan loves, loves, loves his dad more than anybody else, really. He would cry if anything would happen to his dad. Or he probably would cry. It is Nathan, after all, and he forms very strong bonds with people when he lets them close - or he just really ends up loving people. He loved his therapist, he loved his double, so on and so forth.

When prompted right, Nathan really won't hesitate to cry. He'll try not to around most people, but if it's around the band and the situation is right, he has no problems letting down his defenses and sobbing then and there. It's rare this happens, and usually if and when it does it's because of the band trying to 'save him' from something for his own good, but... well, let it be said if you gain Nathan's confidence, there's a chance, if he's ever that emotionally disturbed, that he will hug you and sob on your shoulder. Be warned.

Nathan seems to have the most nightmares out of the band, usually playing on all the various insecurities he has about himself. From the death of the band to making out with a demonic tooth lady who caused his jaw to rot off, his dreams usually have common themes of (SURPRISE) death, the colour red, and... junk food. Like burgers and donuts. The burgers were worse. They laughed at him. Though the donuts were terrible too, they were filled with teeth and then turned into tongues. Either way, nightmares. Nathan has them off and on and has no problem mentioning and discussing them with people, even though he can't understand the meaning of them most of the time.

He's also mildly phobic of dentists, due to his personal belief that all dentists are suicidal. He can't stand the idea of a suicidal person messing around with his mouth, because his mouth and teeth are near his brain, and Nathan desperately needs his brain to survive. Similarly, he's afraid of his teeth rotting for that same reason. If his teeth rot, somehow it will get to his brain, and he'll die.

Nathan is prone to leaps of nonsense, such as concluding that people are bleach, that the band needs a space helicopter, and many other things. A chunk of his leaps of nonsense are due to his very limited attention span, which along with his other flaws, he's very aware of. But he has never been able to control it, nor has he ever felt a need to. As a result, he has difficulty focusing on things, keeping on a subject for a while, or even listening to what people say. In fact, to get Nathan to listen well, he usually has to be spoken to one-on-one, and have any objects he could play with taken away. Including his phone.

Unlike most of the band, Nathan isn't that violent at all. Only rarely does he throw punches or slap people, otherwise he is usually very sort of peaceful and reserved. For all his claims of violence and with the lifestyle he lives - surrounded by death and destruction - it's rather surprising that of the lot of them, he's the least likely to strike out at someone or actually cause anyone harm.

In some cases, it could be argued that he even refuses to stand up or defense himself in any way, instead obeying like a meek sort of dog. Example, with his girlfriend Rebecca. No matter how much verbal and emotional abuse and manipulation she hefted onto him, Nathan just took it. He was unhappy and suffering, he hated her with every fiber of his being, but he didn't have the bravery, the nerve, to defend himself. He was too afraid of what she'd do if he tried to leave her. As it's been said, he's an emotional, sweet, caring guy, and when paired with a soul sucking bitch, he's completely overwhelmed to the point where he needs to actually be rescued from the situation he's in... because he's too scared. Yep. Nathan Explosion, cowed by the vaguest of threats.

Other, minor notes involve that he may support socialised medicine, he hates voting, he's not homophobic (though he will throw around 'gay' like nobody's business if he feels like it), he likes dogs and cats, he hates Florida, he hates being in a governmental position, he doesn't watch much tv but he greatly enjoys documentaries. And I can't think of anything else.

But to sum it up: Nathan is a jerk with a heart of gold. ...That's pretty much it if you really want to sum it up.

Other Skills/Abilities: Nathan, despite being out of shape, is very strong. He can lift around 500 to 600 or so pounds with relative ease, his most limp wristed of slaps can break noses, and a single punch from him can knock teeth clear out of people's mouth from the force and momentum.

As with the rest of the band, for some reason, Nathan seems almost impervious to harm. He can drink bleach to almost no ill effect (suffering only from a nightmare), he has lived through five+ liver transplants. He has exposed himself to flesh eating viruses that dwell in the lower levels of Mordhaus without getting affected. So generally, things that would kill most people do not kill Nathan - but he's not aware of it.

Similarly, he has incredible pain tolerance (except when it comes to his teeth). He can smash glass with his head and get pieces sticking out of his forehead - possibly even breaking the skull - without feeling the slightest bit of pain. He can also get dozens of long pieces of glass in his arm, similarly, feeling nothing. Nathan is a tank. He can deal the damage and it'll take a hellova lot to put him out of commission.

He also has super jumping powers. The man can jump a dozen or so feet if he wants to. Which is almost never. Jumping takes too much effort that Nathan doesn't want to even attempt using.

His spirit animal is an alligator.

And as mentioned above, he may be a god, a demi-god, or a demon, based on the hints and stuff thrown around in the series. All this really means is that wherever he goes, bad things tend to happen. Volcanos exploding, hurricanes that wipe out all of Florida, trolls being summoned, dozens of tornados for no reason...

And he has expert contract negotiation skills. He out negotiated the devil.

Other Weaknesses: Nathan has difficulty expressing himself verbally to the point where he may have some sort of speech disorder. The only exception is around Ofdensen and the band - people he's lived with and known for years - otherwise, he sounds very, very socially incompetent and unintelligent.

Chips. Nathan loves chips. They are a true weakness, because... shut up, he's TRYING TO EAT CHIPS.

Nathan is overweight. Don't point it out. It hurts his feelings.

Alcoholism.

History: Nathan was born somewhere in Florida to Oscar and Rose Explosion on some day, in some year. No one except Nathan and his parents know exactly, and Nathan isn't about to tell. Nor is his father. His mother, well, she might, but no one is going to ask her. It's likely he grew up or on a military base, as his father was in the army, but otherwise, Florida.

Nathan was... somewhat of a special child. He didn't speak his first word until he was five, but even then, he was practically a mute, only saying a small handful of words total in a year. His mother doted on him and smothered him even more as a result of it, while his father, who resented him for many a year, eventually warmed up to his quiet son.

In second grade, he witnessed his first series of deaths as a car chase gone wrong resulted in a drunken driver crashing into his classroom, killing all in the room but him. Despite witnessing such a horrible thing, Nathan didn't seem to react and remained as withdrawn as he had always been. He scraped by in school, just barely passing his classes. In high school, he only excelled at football and frog dissection, though he had a passing interest in creative writing classes. When he was 15 or 16, he dropped out to form his first band.

A few years went on like that, going from band to band until fate brought him together with Pickles, William Murderface, Skiwsgaar Skwigelf, and MH. Together they formed Dethklok, performed gigs at bars and clubs and other venues until Charles Ofdensen stumbled across the band and quickly took his place as their manager. They signed onto Crystal Waters label, and began to grow in popularity.

At some point, MH disappeared from Dethklok - why, well, Brendon Small won't say - and they brought in young rhythm guitarist Toki Wartooth to fill the gap. And that was when it fell into place. Dethklok soared in popularity over the next few years, becoming it's own economy and with their own legal powers. The world itself came to depend on the band.

Somewhere along the line, the Tribunal was formed, and since then, they've been monitoring Dethklok and occassionally intervening in some of their activities.

Dethklok has since:

Almost entirely destroyed Finland
Destroyed Florida
Caused a million people to commit suicide via drowning themselves
Hospitalised thousands with coffee
Bought an island for stray and feral cats
Adopted a son they named Fatty Ding-dongs (and eventually released with the kitties)
Killed the London Philharmonic Orchestra
Been almost killed by the Metal Masked Assassin
Caused a group called the Revengencers to form and brainwash millions
Caused Jordan to war over something
Revolutionized and revived both comedy and blues
and many other things.

Within the past year, they've been heavily attacked by the Revengencers, who all but destroyed Mordhaus. In the fighting, it was believed Ofdensen was killed, and for nine months, Nathan was left to manage the band. He didn't do so well, and eventually, Dethklok was in the red due to their poor impulse buying. Thankfully, Ofdensen was alive, and came back just in time to save the band from the label, who was forcing them to cut a very shitty deal.

Things have been mellower since then - the band hasn't performed any concerts, so there hasn't been any mass destruction. The world breathes a sigh of relief, for now.

AND SCRIBBLES BEFORE YOU SAY MORE HISTORY, SERIOUSLY. THIS IS ALL THERE IS AND I'M NOT TOSSING IN A LOT OF HEADCANON ON THE OFF CHANCE BRENDON REVEALS IT. :(!!!!!!

Canon Point: Fanklok

Reality Description: At first glance, the world of Metalocalypse seems to be similar to the real world. It has the same countries, the same people, it's almost 2010. But that first glance doesn't last too long as you begin to look a little bit more. Characters from the real world may even pick up on the fact several places and companies/fast food joints are similar to Metal bands. Dimmu Burger and Fintroll's, as two prime examples. But that's just a minor note - one of the big differences is Dethklok, the world's sixth largest economy.

Every country in the world hinges on Dethklok, without them, the world would collapse into disrepair. News shows often talk about them, tabloids and newspapers are constantly covered with the latest bit of Dethklok news. Governments bow down to the authority of the band. The world is a bleak, depressing place that relies on a single metal band to get by.

And that's just scratching the surface. To most people in the Metalocalypse universe, that's all their is. The world and Dethklok. The mass murders in their honor, the mass suicides, the shootings, the burned buildings, so on. People blithely accept it all, because, well, it's been slowly escalating for the past 20 years. But as I said, that's scratching the surface.

The closer you get to Dethklok, the more you get to know about the world. The technology in the Metalocalypse universe is much more advanced than ours, although 90%+ of it is within the hands of Dethklok and Dethklok only. Robotic eyes, hover cycles, hover pentagons. The ability to record sound on water itself. All this and more is within Dethklok's grasp, even though they don't realise it or understand it. They own the world's best scientists, who happily toil to please their Lords.

So to say there's a significant scifi bend to it wouldn't be understating it, even if the scifi isn't really the focus. It's there, lying in wait to be used. In fact, Dethklok even has working and lethal laser beams, the kind that can slice right through a person, even though they really shouldn't have the technology for that sort of thing yet. But surprise, they do.

But that's still not all. Surrounding Dethklok is a fair share of mysticality and 'fantasy' themes as well. Throughout the show they have been the focus of a Sumerian prophecy, stating that Dethklok will bring about the apocalypse. The five of them are even hinted at being gods or demons, laying the groundwork then and there for fantasy elements. Yet there's more of it to the world. There are trolls that lurk in the depths of lakes. There are mutated monsters deep in the sea. And despite all the bleakness, all the horrible things about the world... there are unicorns. There are unicorns that exist in the Metalocalypse universe. So hey. Unicorns.

Presumably, there's magic, too. Cardinal Ravenwood, a former member of the Tribunal, which I will touch on in just a moment, was a prophet, so I wouldn't be that surprised if there was magic. After all, if unicorns, trolls, demons, the devil, and other sorts of things are real, who is to say that there isn't some magic kicking around, too? Not widespread, but there's a chance of it.

Now, I mentioned the Tribunal. They run everything. Everything. Every channel on tv, every movie made, every book published, they have manipulated and controlled and so on. They're a conspiracy theorist wet dream. While they claim to have noble goals in preventing the Metalocalypse and containing Dethklok, they're far more sinister than that. They willfully try to make the public as stupid as possible, keep the lower class lower and the higher class higher, make sure every bit of entertainment is vapid and unintelligent. They're everything wrong with the world, and often many of their Dethklok related fears involve that Dethklok may inspire people or industries to better themselves, which would be counterproductive to what the Tribunal wants.

The Tribunal is headed by a man known as Selatcia, an older, strong looking gentleman who speaks in a low, growl of a voice. Who he really is is unknown, but he is most definitely not human. Nor is he at all interested in preventing the Metalocalypse, far from it. In fact, he seems to be one of the beings trying to make it so, and have Dethklok serve as his demonic generals. The Halfman.

General Crozier serves as the military advisor to the Tribunal, and is arguably the only one with the people's best interests in mind. He truly wishes to stop the Metalocalypse and often goes against Selatcia's orders to attempt to kill members of Dethklok. Unfortunately, Selatcia has wisened to his disloyalty, and seized control of Crozier's mind to use him to manipulate the military. He has made Crozier aware of the truth, but it's unknown if Crozier is back under his own free will or if he's now bound to obey Selatcia until the end of the Earth.

Senator Stampingston often organises Tribunal meetings and is the prime example of someone on the Tribunal for his own manipulative reasons. He cares little about the Metalocalypse, and more about keeping the American public an unintelligent, easily manipulated lot.

Not much is known about Vatar Orlaag, but he is well aware of Selatcia's true nature, and serves as his right hand man in Tribunal affairs.

Cardinal Ravenwood, now deceased, was one of the only other members of the Tribunal who was attempting to prevent the Metalocalypse. While not the best of prophets, he often had visions of the future, which eventually lead him to having suspicions of Selatcia's motives, and lead him to ally himself with Crozier. Unfortunately, Selatcia knew of their betrayal and killed Ravenwood. Despite this, Ravenwood has remained in contact with Crozier to some degree, sending him messages from beyond the grave. It is implied that Ravenwood is now in hell, and is still trying to help his ally stop the Metalocalypse.

Now that everyone's up to date on the Tribunal, let's move onto Dethklok, the ones that are far more important to Nathan and anyone that would communicate with Nathan, as... they're the band.

Skwisgaar Skwigelf, taller than a tree. Blond, blue eyed, and tall, Skwisgaar is... Skwisgaar. He is the definitive manwhore of the band, sleeping with thousands and thousands of women. He's the father to hundreds of children, and has no desire to ever settle down. Lead Guitarist and from Sweden, and has a tendencies to talks like this.

Toki Wartooth, not a bumblebee. Brunet, blue eyed, and absolutely RIPPED, Toki is the most outwardly childish of the band, not to mention the youngest. Toki is somewhere in his 20s compared to the rest of the band being in their late 30s to early 40s. Despite being the most childish, he's also the most violent of the band, capable of snapping at any moment. Rhythm Guitarist and from Norway, and alsos has a tendencies to talks likes this.

William Murderface, Murderface, Murderface. Brunet, green eyed, and the fat/ugly one of the band, Murderface is... he's a tsundere. It's the only way to put it. He's a dick to everyone he meets, but it just hides the fact he's an emotionally sensitive, caring man who just wants to be accepted, but always sabotages his attempts. Bass Guitarist. Talksch with a lateral lischp.

Pickles the Drummer, doodily do ding dong doodily doodily do. Redhead, green eyed, and the shortest of the band, Pickles is the band's jack of all trades, capable of doing everything. He can sing, he can play guitar, he can play drums. He's immune to every drug and is the bands biggest alcoholic. Drummer and Backup Singer. Talks with a yooper accent.

Charles Foster Ofdensen. Brunet, green eyed, and stoic, Ofdensen is the band's manager. And Chief Financial Officer. And lawyer. And just about everything else. Ofdensen loves his boys, lives with them in Mordhaus, and will do anything to keep them safe. He's a mama bear through and through, and god forbid you try to take his boys away from him. He will destroy you. He has amazing fighting abilities. He may not even be human!

Dick Knubbler. Blond, ROBOT EYES, and infinitely patient, he's the band's producer engineer. He handles everything involving producing the album and any side projects they might want to do, and is very patient with the band and their antics. He knows that they're... special and tolerates it well. That isn't to say he doesn't yell at them, but he doesn't make them rebel.

Abigail Remeltindtdrinc, their new producer. 'The Record Cleaner'. She's a no-nonsense taskmaster type who seems to take no shit from anybody.

Somehow I completely forgot Dr. Rockzo, the Rock and Roll clown - he does cocaine, so I need to fix that later.

Formerly of Dethklok, Magnus Hammersmith. Years ago he was (lead?) guitarist of the band and quickly became a raging douchebag. Eventually this came to a head when he stabbed Nathan in the back and Nathan beat him hard enough to half blind him. And then they threw him out of the band. But he's baaaaaaaaaack.

Now, I mentioned Mordhaus. Very briefly, that is, well, their home in Mordland (and the show doesn't exactly say where Mordland is). It's a gigantic fortress with a hospital, a golf course, an underground prison facility, and just about anything the band could want. Dethklok, Ofdensen, and their many Klokateers all live there. If you want more, watch Mordhaus Tours. That video is exactly how I'd describe everything.

And now, a third group to describe. The Revengencers. Originally lead by three people, now four, it is a group aiming to kill Dethklok. All of the members have been 'wronged' by Dethklok in some way, and now seek, well, revenge. Unfortunately, they aren't that noble. They've brainwashed thousands against their will to fight for them and use the people they've captured as cannon fodder. Now, the members of the Revengencers!

The Metal Masked Assassin. Not much is known about him, other than he's likely in his 60s, and wears a metal mask over his face. He is skilled in martial arts and, surprise, assassination. His grievance with Dethklok is over the death of his brother, who had been hired to kill the band by Crozier, but was instead killed in a fight with Klokateer 216. He is quiet and speaks in a low, gravelly, growl of a voice, much like both Nathan and Selatcia. The 'muscle' of the Revengencers.

Edgar Jomfru. One half of the Jomfru brothers, former proprietor of diefordethklok.com. Edgar and Eric's greed and entitlement got the best of them, and they attempted to blackmail the band. The result was that Eric was killed and Edgar imprisoned deep within Mordhaus for months before finally escaping and banding together with the Metal Masked Assassin. The 'brains' of the Revengencers. Captured at the end of Season 2. Currently working for Dethklok.

The Teenager. His name is unknown. He suffers from severe PTSD brought about from his torture within Mordhaus' prison, and hasn't spoken a single word since he escaped with Edgar. The reason he was imprisoned was... petty, sort of. He downloaded a single Dethklok album, and Dethklok has legal authority to enforce any regulations they want on their music. The Klokateers captured him, tortured him, and imprisoned him over one album.

Lavona Sucuboso. Leader of Sucuboso Explosion. She has no real desire to kill Dethklok, but she sees the Revengencers as a means to an end. She leads a 'cult', so to speak, of women who want to form an 'army' with their children. Except these children shouldn't be sired by anybody, it has to be Nathan. She has an agreement with the rest of the Revengencers that if they ever capture Dethklok, she is free to do whatever she wants with Nathan, and only when she is finished will she hand him over to the rest of them.

and idk what else to say.